Harmless ranting

[MMM_AJ]

ATTENTION! This thread and the rants contained therein are NOT, I repeat, NOT intended to offend anyone whatsoever. Although I am going to say some pretty damn negative things, I want you guys to know that if you come away from this thread even feeling the slightest bit offended, you've missed the point. I'm only doing this to vent some feelings, and it does not mean that I'm angry at anyone. Thank you.

There are three things that I want to vent about, starting with the biggest:

A. Sex.

Now first of all, before you ask, yes, I do stay away from that adult board. And yes, I know about this board's official disclaimer.
Having said these things, I want to get out some frustrations on this subject, no pun intended.

By now everyone who's gotten to know me on the Temple knows I'm the ultimate wet blanket in this respect. I spoil the fun whenever someone's trying to yiff in the chat. I try not to get in the way, but it is painfully obvious to me that i'm just bringing everyone down. It makes me feel sad, almost like a misfit, every time I come in here and get reminded that I am absolutely the only member of the Temple with no sexual attractions to Mewtwo of any kind.

Now I'm definitely not trying to say that there's anything wrong with any of what you guys do, it's your cup of tea and I'm glad you enjoy it. I just feel isolated sometimes because of it, and it makes me feel like some sort of freak. I don't know if it's because I'm just an antixesual person, or if it's just because I don't fit in.

And a subpoint to this...

a. Yaoi.

First off, I'm no homophobe at all. I have alot of really good friends who are gay. (Boy how cliched was that sentence?) Hell, I'd vote positiviely for all gay/bi whatever rights movements because I know it's a person's right to be this way. But, I do not enjoy yoai myself.

I'm not saying that I hold this against anyone, or I think it's bad, I'm just saying that I don't enjoy it myself. I don't have any problem with anyone putting yoai in their comics/fanfics/whatever, I just don't want people to expect me to enjoy them or even read them. Again I'll say, you have your cup of tea and I have mine, we'll both drink ours and get on with life.

B. Roleplaying and characters.

I think everyone should also know by now that I suck ass at serious roleplaying. I've tried several times and either ended up godmodding horribly or just making an ass out of myself. I am good at doing silly stuff, but that's about it.

What's the rant then, you ask? I've had a couple of people ask me why my character is a human. I can't give you a straight answer, but I can say that it probably comes from past bad experiences I've had with RP'ing. I've been accused of godmodding before, and I think that if I got my hands on powers like those of a Mewtwo character, it would not only be ego city, but everyone would end up hating me.

Another thing, the times I HAVE tried to RP seriously with my human character I've been met with mixed results. Sure I have close friends like Zeph and M3, but every time I try to get to know someone outside my ring of close friends, it seems things turn cold.

Now I know how your character acts cannot reflect on how you really are in person, and it would be unfair for me to judge anyone based solely on how my character has interacted with them. But sometimes, when the RP'ing gets thick, it gets hard to separate the user from their character, and I end up feeling unwelcomed outside my small circle of friends. This is what has made me consider leaving the temple several times, but I have never wanted to give up that easily. But, the reasons above are mainly why I haven't moved my character's profile over here to the new board, because I just don't think I'm welcomed to RP by anyone outside my circle anymore.

C. Fanficcing

I want to say right now, probably most of the Temple members outside my small circle of friends should probably not read my fanfic. Why you ask? Well, it feels to me that my personal interpretation of Mewtwo differs drastically from most everyone else's. i'm not saying that nobody can enjoy my story, I'm just saying that most people who like Mewtwo for his badass, human-hating, violent side would not like my less...angry...interpretation.

I've heard alot of people say that they came to be a Mewtwo fan because they found that they could identify with his feelings of anger, loneliness, and general other crappy feelings. I came to be a Mewtwo fan because I admired his freedom and his strength, not because of all the emotional trauma he endured, and this shows in a very blatant way in my fanfic. I'm happy to say that I have an extremely good home life with generous, caring parents. There's an old saying about writing that a writer will inadvertantly write his/her main character with traits that resemble themselves. That's very true for me. I wrote Mewtwo into my fanfic as a character who is still traumatized to a certain extent, but isn't full of hatred towards humanity at all anymore. And if you're one of the people who likes Mewtwo for one of those above mentioned reasons, then I highly reccommend that you avoid my fanfic altogether. That's also the main reason why I have yet to post my fanfic here on the Temple, becuase I'm now thoroughly convinced I'd just get yelled at for portraying Mewtwo as too much of a sissy.

Again, none of this is directed at anyone, and none of it is intended to offend or make even the slightest bit upset. I just had some stuff churning on my chest for a long time that needed to be vented. Reply with what you will, but most of my feelings have already been resolved just by writing this. :)

[Jaxtwo]

First off... XD

Ok ok...

Well, after hearing about what you're fic is like, I'm really wanting to read it now. I've always liked Mewtwo's character becuase it's a different story than most, and how he strives to find out his fate/destiny. Never been much of a humanhater (since the story I've been working on for the last 7 years revolves around one), so don't consider me anti-humans! ^^;;

Ok... *Goes to read MMM's fic* :P

[mewrei]

I do my best to keep the yiffing stuff in the yiff forums. However, I cannot have any sympathy for anti-yiff people in the yiff forums or other things. If you don't like it, leave.

If I get many more complaints I'm going to get pissed off majorly and lock everyone 21 and under out of the adult forums. Don't make me do that. Believe me, I will.

The vision of Mewtwo is really to each his own. My ideal vision of the Mewtwo race is that portrayed by Mother Avalon in Avalon's Tail(Google search it if your interested. I think its http://motheravalon.tripod.com/splash.html )

That is what makes this community diverse and great. Anyone caught with the classic "you suck" slam on this forum will have to endure my wrath. I've had enough of it. Particularly with my favorite artist Carrie-Phox on deviantART. If it gets to such a point, I can have the forum email me all PM's meeting certain criteria. Again, don't make me do it, but I will.

Role playing isn't an exact science. A great way to learn how to RP is through the D20 system in Dungeons and Dragons or D20 Modern. Both of which are alot of fun. I've been working on a Mewtwo primer for the D20 system in D20 Modern but my knowledge of that particular stats system isn't as good as D&D. Bear with me though.

If your precarious about role playing, its important to stay fairly on topic in traditional RPs. Strict RPs require you to work very closely with the GM in order to know what to do. Freeroaming was created for non-experienced role players so they can get used to it and just do whatever.

Obviously Repititio est mater studiorum or repition is the mother of sucess. The best way to get it right, is to get it wrong.

[MMM_AJ]

Originally posted by mewrei
I do my best to keep the yiffing stuff in the yiff forums. However, I cannot have any sympathy for anti-yiff people in the yiff forums or other things. If you don't like it, leave.

One thing I pointed out explicitly, I'm not trying to sound like I'm being anti-anything. I'm not sure if I pointed it out clearly enough, but the point is that I got no problem with people doing it, what depresses me is the fact that I can't identify with the people who do it.

Originally posted by mewrei
If I get many more complaints I'm going to get pissed off majorly and lock everyone 21 and under out of the adult forums. Don't make me do that. Believe me, I will.

I pointed out, I never touch the adult board, it's not even a part of the point. If you lock it off you're just going to make alot of people angry at me. I don't care about what's in there, the point of my rant was that I feel isolated because I don't enjoy it, not because of its existence. You missed that point entirely.

Originally posted by mewrei
That is what makes this community diverse and great. Anyone caught with the classic "you suck" slam on this forum will have to endure my wrath. I've had enough of it. Particularly with my favorite artist Carrie-Phox on deviantART. If it gets to such a point, I can have the forum email me all PM's meeting certain criteria. Again, don't make me do it, but I will.


God. I tried to specifically say that "you suck" type comments were the last thing on my mind. you must have skimmed over that part because its community diversity that I love. I'll reiterate again, the point of my post was to vent why I was feeling isolated, not pointing out a percieved wrong of any kind.

Coincidentally, Carrie happens to be one of my fav artists.

Originally posted by mewrei
Role playing isn't an exact science. A great way to learn how to RP is through the D20 system in Dungeons and Dragons or D20 Modern. Both of which are alot of fun. I've been working on a Mewtwo primer for the D20 system in D20 Modern but my knowledge of that particular stats system isn't as good as D&D. Bear with me though.
.

God, I've tried and tried to get into D&D, but the pure, type A level that they regulate the tinyest details really gets under my skins. If I have 2.7 millimeters too little parchment, I can still make a freakin dungeon map. >_<

So yes. Get my point? I'm not saying anything's wrong with the community, I'm just saying why I feel isolated from it sometimes. I should have figured people would have taken it out of proportion.

[RehcaerpM22]

*Shrugs* I've never exposed you to any. So rock on. =P
And SC soon again?

[Jaxtwo]

Woah Mewrei, I think you took this lil rant a lil too seriously! *Pats* Settle down boy! :P

[mewrei]

I'm not saying MMM-AJ was the person doing all of this. I'm saying, while he was on the topic, beware. I'm not accusing AJ but this is going on. Don't make me get serious with enforcing the board's regulations.

[MMM_AJ]

Originally posted by mewrei
I'm not saying MMM-AJ was the person doing all of this. I'm saying, while he was on the topic, beware. I'm not accusing AJ but this is going on. Don't make me get serious with enforcing the board's regulations.

I just want to kindly point out one thing Rei. One thing only, and no offense intended.

Originally posted by mewrei
Mewtwology is the study of our furry and phalic friend, Mewtwo.

You'll have to enforce it on yourself in this case too.

Seriously, if you DO do anything to make people mad, they'll come after me since I posted this thread. So saying something like you'll lock off the adult board is a very indirect way to threaten ME. Because then everyone will blame ME. So be kind and rewind. *shot*

[Godgolden]

i wont go after you MM ill blame Rei and you then go back to the none Nazi old TOM

[Zephyr Analea]

random that i want to point to: Sure I have close friends like Zeph and M3 i feel loved ^_^

ranting is good. if you don't rant every now and then, you'll go insane. Ranting also helps keep you from getting cramps while walking.

And about the fanfic, I love it ^_^ *holds up a "Proud to be the first fan, woohoo!" sign*

[mewrei]

I most certainly wasn't blaming you but I get accused of being random on a daily basis

Definition of Phalic- A sexual attraction to a given entity for one reason or another. Often induced by the primary urge of the creator of the said entity to be sexually attracting to certain types of people.

Doesn't necessarily mean there will be sexual content, but it will be clearly marked if so. That's why the ratings are present in the roleplaying section. If its R or NC-17, expect contact.

MMM-AJ, my cloak of protection covers you too. I have received an absurd amount of complaints about problems with the forums and alot more pertaining to the existance of "The Bed Chambers". I'm sick and tired of hearing "Mewtwo is a pokemon you [bleep]ing freak!" and people getting mad at me because they think he should be respected more. The existance of that forum section keeps it out of the rest of the forum damnit.

I will say this. If I get any more complaints from ToM regulars(such as GG or Reh, which is VERY unlikely mind you) I will inact the filtering and start reading EVERY private message to make sure no one is getting blamed.

Sorry you guys, I only rant when I'm pissed off at something

[MMM_AJ]

Originally posted by mewrei
MMM-AJ, my cloak of protection covers you too. I have received an absurd amount of complaints about problems with the forums and alot more pertaining to the existance of "The Bed Chambers". I'm sick and tired of hearing "Mewtwo is a pokemon you [bleep]ing freak!" and people getting mad at me because they think he should be respected more. The existance of that forum section keeps it out of the rest of the forum damnit.

I will say this. If I get any more complaints from ToM regulars(such as GG or Reh, which is VERY unlikely mind you) I will inact the filtering and start reading EVERY private message to make sure no one is getting blamed.

Sorry you guys, I only rant when I'm pissed off at something

Your magic cloak may be nice for PM's, but it won't magically deflect nasty sentiments away from me, and it certainly won't help me outsidem of this board. If you lock off the bedchambers here, two things will happen;

A. Everyone will go back to the old ToM

and

B. everyone will blame me and not welcome me back to the old ToM.

So even if you do read all PM's and try your best to do whatever, it'll still be a negative action in the long run.

And for the last time, I wasn't complaining about the existence of that forum damnit, I was rambling on why I feel isolated from the community at times, and that's because I can't identify with those who do use that board.

[mewrei]

For the last and final time, I'm not accusing you of anything unless you're the one sending me emails with the subject line "fuck you bitch". I've had about 5 of those THIS MONTH. All from different people. They haul off telling me how much I suck, the problems with the forum, and sometimes will even bash Mewtwo.

I'm sick and tired of people getting mad at me, when they voluntarily visit this site AND the adult forum

[Jaxtwo]

Originally posted by mewrei
For the last and final time, I'm not accusing you of anything unless you're the one sending me emails with the subject line "fuck you bitch". I've had about 5 of those THIS MONTH. All from different people. They haul off telling me how much I suck, the problems with the forum, and sometimes will even bash Mewtwo.

I'm sick and tired of people getting mad at me, when they voluntarily visit this site AND the adult forum

Now who is sending these emails? If it's members of the temple (which I can think of no one so callous) then perhaps a warning via week ban, etc...

If it is creepy from outside the temple, then perhaps you could make it so bed chambers, flame section, etc. are locked to outsiders...

Just a thought...

[mewrei]

They are locked to outsiders. They have to be ToM members but none of the emails match up. Not suprizing. I have like 5 main email addresses then several others.

[MMM_AJ]

Originally posted by mewrei
They are locked to outsiders. They have to be ToM members but none of the emails match up. Not suprizing. I have like 5 main email addresses then several others.

Idea has popped up here Rei.

Is it possible for you to make the bedchambers completely invisible to those who have not yet registered? That might help.

As for the people who bash Mewtwo in general, just a good old BLOCK will give those people the right message.

[Jaxtwo]

Originally posted by MMM_AJ
As for the people who bash Mewtwo in general, just a good old BLOCK will give those people the right message.

Right on! :P

[mew2cool]

well, if you don't like those things, i dunno what to say. but if you want to know ppl, just IM them to get to know what they are like.

and finally.....
"if just closed minds would come with a closed mouth." (just HAD to say that XP)